When I Stopped Chasing and Started Creating

Somewhere between the 4am study sessions, the corporate shifts, and the evening rush to get everything done before another day began, I forgot what it felt like to play. To feel joy. To just have fun.

I built my life around proving I could do it all - the perfect university student, the perfect employee, the perfect person holding everything together. But somewhere along the way, I lost something important: the part of me that loves creating just for the sake of it. 

'Somewhere between doing it all, I forgot what it felt like to play.'

Between university deadlines and corporate work, the weeks blurred together until a full year had passed. I was achieving constantly, yet it all felt empty - like I was ticking boxes instead of living. That's when I realised something had to change. I needed to bring creativity back into my life. 

One quiet evening, I tried something new: Polymer clay. It seemed simple enough - mould, bake, done. (spoiler: it's not that simple!). But as I began shaping it, something shifted. My mind went quiet. My hands remembered what joy felt like. For the first time in a long while, I felt peace - the kind that comes when you stop chasing and start simply being. Creating became the missing link I didn't known I'd been searching for. 

As a child, I was always making things - sketching, crafting, imagining. Somewhere along the way, I told myself to grow up and leave it behind. But that night, sitting cross-legged on my bed with clay under my nails, I realised I hadn't lost my creativity; I'd buried it under expectation. 

'My mind went quiet. My hands remembered what joy felt like.'

 

That night became the beginning of Luma Studio - a space where creativity meets psychology. A space to explore how making, shaping, and creating can heal the parts of us we lose to the noise of achievement. Luma, meaning light, felt like the perfect symbol - a reminder to stay connected to what brightens my world: creativity, reflection, and flow. 

'Luma Studio: A spare where creativity meets psychology - where making, shaping, and creating helps us return to ourselves.'

 

This next year isn't about success or strategy. It's about learning, slowing down, and letting clay teach me how to flow again. It's about bringing joy and curiosity back into my everyday life - the piece of calm that grounds me when things get heavy. 

Luma Studio is my creative year - one of play, curiosity, and healing. Maybe, somewhere in it, you'll find a piece of yourself too.